It was quite a tiring day for me :)
Really need to prioritize well.
Sigh...
Having been lectured/ scolded / told off
whatever you call it.
Ticks me off.
Two different elements.
One way you can say it.
Elements come from different origins.
Though we're sisters.
If I could swear.
I'd swear that we have no similarity whatsoever.
True, I'm still in my own world.
True I'm not that street smart,
I may have not thought so far forward into the future.
I may never go up to where you rise up to
The church is not a place where its smiley and cheery all the time
You weren't even here long enough to tell.
If sadness can be so easily seen.
Its not even called an emotion.
Emotions can't be seen or heard
Just because I don't say say anything
is so that I don't burst or crack or break of the sort.
You don't have to put me down that low.
Slam the reality into my blood.
Sometimes, I wish that I'd never existed.
I wouldn't have to see the occasional benefits of a firstborn
Whatever.
Screw it.
I hate it.
You have the potential to be an interrogator.
Your eyes lack warmth.
All I feel is bitterness.
God.
I don't have to say,
" if you're there, help me out"
Because I know you're there.
Even if the church change.
Times change.
You remain the same.
All I want to find out is.
Is it still going according to your will?
I cried myself to sleep the previous night.
Wondering as the icy words resound in my head.
Screw it.
I'm dead
Serious.
I'm not mad.
Just agitated.
The fact that I can't shoot back.
Cause our values,
from day 1
has been different.
What I say,
it can only be twisted to her liking.
Someday,
I'll prove my point.
Just you wait and see.
Don't say that this is to motivate me nonsense.
There are 101 ways to do so and you choose this.
What can I say,
bad judgement runs in the family.
Signing off
for now.
Wordless-song.
