I'm starting to blog regularly on Mondays, I don't know why it seems that I like Monday module put me in a better mood. I think I'm liking enterprise module even though its about business ethics compounding interest, financial planning stuff, even though it's the easy part. I wonder if business drama is the same as media drama...I guess I'm glad that school is giving us the exposure of other modules.

I feel tired as usual, I don't know why. I've been feeling tired ever since school started...is it stress? I remembered stress feeling different...Oh wells...Signing off for now :)

One day when I'm old enough, I'm financially stable enough.
I want to travel, to the cities, to the countrysides.
Look up into the sky enjoy all of it, God's creations.

Sometimes I wish I could just say "I hate you" ...However I can't bring myself to say it...I can't speakk normally with this person. It's as if he has the automatic switch to turn off my patience! I can't stand being around him!

Aside from that, I really feel that my motivtion is starting to slip away again...God guide me in my ways >.< I tired but I'm looking to moving on. Coming back to where I am now if I ever backtrack will surely tire me out... I feel like the Israelites that wandered for 40years, I wonder where I'm even at now...

logged on to put up a quick post :) Had Enterprise skills Module today :) I quite like the class even though there's so many theories that we need to know of :) Found out that business negotiations or property negotiations are tougher than I thought it was...I think I took a teeny little peep of what Pastor Kong and his team went through when we were looking for the location of our new building.

I'm going to keep on keeping on >.<
its hard when you feel so worn out ...Will still try :)

8 days later from my previous post, well a lot has happened and I'm tired, worn out emotionally. I really need God, I can't imagine where I'd be if I never encountered Him and His grace. 2 weeks away from PBL makes me rusty >.< I feel that the me in class is cheery at the same time nervous and tries to work hard, I think the me that my close friends see is still cheery but they also see the sad side of me or rather they see the drained side of me. I thank God for them in my life because I can't keep up the cheery disposition forever, I doubt that I'd choose to be sad around my schoolmates. It's still early to see who stays and who doesn't. They say that when we grow more in God, we have thick skin with thin hearts...At times I wish that we can have both...

My head hurts...
Do I think too much? It won't do if I underthink it...
Sometimes I wish I could just cry and curse at the wind...
My heart aches...
But I need to go on...

Woke up at 4.30pm! Gosh it's hours away from the time I had intended to wake up at >.< Putting on the final touches to my mission, I showered, got dressed and left the house at 6.15pm and reached Esplanade MRT station at 7.05pm >.< five mins late >.< sorry guys, I didn't intend to oversleep T_T...

So we headed out for Esplanade and ate at Makansutra * hope I spelled that correctly :3 and
shared fried bee hoon, kang kong, onion omelet and fried chicken. I also ate a little from my friend's oyster omelet and carrot cake ;P was quite tasty, hee hees.

After that we took a couple of photos near Esplanade and went to Marina Square's Macdonald to chill out and we played a round of Monopoly Deal!! I managed to win after weeks of losing >.< so glad :) Lols, thank goodness no one tried to mess up my beginning! Cause if my beginning set up process was messed up, it's hard for me to win>.<

Afterwards some of us wanted to watch a late movie so we took the MRT to somerset. On our way there, I unexpectedly ran into my classmate on the train! I like kept staring at him when he boarded the train at douby ghaut, thinking that he looked very similar to my classmate and kept wondering if it was him >.< After a while, he looked over and saw me :) and I waved hi to him and went across to chat a little with him before I got off one stop later.

Going to cineleisure we saw that the timings for the late night movies was too late for us >.< Giving up the thought of watching movies, we went and had Ben & Jerry!! YUM! While my friend had bannana split, the other having a pint of chocolate fudge to eat and bring back, I had the simple two scoop cup of chocolate chip cookie dough and mango mango sorbet!:P As I enjoyed the ice-cream, I felt that the mango had a refreshing feel to it :3

Taking 6N back home and showering the first thing when I got back, this ends my friday :)

Thanks for reading :)

Funky Blue Nails!!!

Had some sister to sister bonding time last night as I volunteered to be my sis's test subject for her blue nail polish :) hee hees. I had fun talking to her last night and just being by each other :) *honestly I was fidgeting a lot, I had a problem staying still as she painted my nails :)

It looks a little funky at first glance but it gets nicer to look at when you get to look at it longer :) Also, my hand kinda looks lighter or rather I think the blue kinda brings out/reminded me that I have yellowish tinged skin.

Its not all bad :) I'm kinda tempted to paint my room this shade of blue...well maybe a lighter shade of blue :)

Went for a school workshop today and was super sleepy on my way to and at school.
I can take teasing and jokes but if that's your way of conversing with me, I don't know how long my patience can last.
I almost wanted to cry on the spot after what was done...
I could only keep my mouth shut to prevent myself from doinging or saying anything unnecessary.
How much do you want to repeat what had happened?

Moving on before this becomes hatred and grudge.
I went and had lunch at the school canteen and bubble tea,
walking over to Woodlands interchange I took the sheltered path since it was drizzling.
Along that path I stopped at the bus stop to put on my headphones and listen to Planetshakers and Parachute band to clear my mind :)

As I did that, I had placed the bubble tea on the seat and thought to myself that the last time I bought bubble tea was also on dreary and gray day too.
I hope that it won't become a regular practice...

Took the train to douby ghaut standing most of the way since I gave my seat to an elderly lady.
upon arrival, I intended to go to Paper Market then to Made with Love, since one is at B1 and the other is somewhere along the 3rd or 4th floor.

I took my time looking through the shop thinking what could I do and how should I make the card...In the end I took more than I needed just because they look pretty and bought some markers too, since I don't have anymore that's useable. In the end I spent $54+!!! >.< * wallet crying in pain!

After that escapade, I dropped by to Manhatten Fish Market and talked with my colleagues and supervisors, I had lots of fun talking, saying hi to the other waiters,waitresses and the kitcehen crew :)

I missed working there, I mean how can you not? They're all really nice, fun and friendly people!! :) While I was there I found out that the set lunch menu had changed the items to really embarrassing to say names! OMG!!! Even the customers didn't dare to say it! LOLS!!

Leaving the restaurant at 4pm I went over to the bookshop near the washroom and felt that I should buy something to read. And bought some classics I did! :) Gosh, what am I saying!

Since I was on a spending spree, I went back down to the Basement floor shopped at the DVD store. I was feeling the need for DVDs >.< LOLS.

With this it concludes my day :) It felt kinda lonely though, going here and there alone >.< Oh wells, what to do?

As the title explains, I'm offically in the SA interest group!
I don't have a working camera with me so I don't have any photos to show.
Dressed up as Miss Mad Hatter, as the theme for the meetings was Characters.
It can be anyone we wanted. I really like alice in wonderland so I chose this :)
I know that my outfit doesn't resemble the original at all but I wish that people would just show oh so tiny bit more of compassion with your words. It's not as if your costume was the best one there and you're in the least bit similar to your character.

I'm I being too sensitive?
Sometimes I feel that they're laughing at me...
I shouldn't try to blend in to them right?

What to do? I just joined and I'm already feeling left out...

I'm back :)
And I've changed the skin and changed the song list :)
Some of the popular hits, some older songs and songs I'm currently listening to :)

A lot of things happened between this post and the previous post.
It kinda feels like Genesis 1:1 and Genesis 1:2.
I'm feeling sick inside,
I don't know what I've come down with
but it feels like some intense longing.
I guess my spirit is telling me "go do the things you like! Before you explode!"
It's a fact, I have not drawn seriously and/or sit down for 3-5hours just solely drawing whatever I want.
I feel really rusty, my creative juices coming to a halt...
Missin Mrs Sim and Art lessons like crazy :)

I feel that I need to go back to the start.
The fundamentals of who I am, I know that when God increase, I'll decrease.
But I don't think in the essence that I lose who I am.
I feel that being nice too often makes me forget who I am.

There's a lot of "I"s today...Lols
Anyways, I just feel that I need to go back to the start of myself.
Residing somewhere in heart