fairytale/

Fairytale
'cause I don't care for your fairytales You're so worried about the maiden though you know She's only waiting on the next best thing Snow White is doing dishes again cause What else can you do With seven itty-bitty men? Sends them to bed and calls up a friend Says will you meet me at midnight? The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows

This is my life and my story

I'm telling.

And no, I'm not that interested in

your drama. :)

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Thursday, July 9, 2009,12:31 AM

It was quite a tiring day for me :)

Really need to prioritize well.

Sigh...

Having been lectured/ scolded / told off

whatever you call it.

Ticks me off.

Two different elements.

One way you can say it.

Elements come from different origins.

Though we're sisters.

If I could swear.

I'd swear that we have no similarity whatsoever.

True, I'm still in my own world.

True I'm not that street smart,

I may have not thought so far forward into the future.

I may never go up to where you rise up to

The church is not a place where its smiley and cheery all the time

You weren't even here long enough to tell.

If sadness can be so easily seen.

Its not even called an emotion.

Emotions can't be seen or heard

Just because I don't say say anything

is so that I don't burst or crack or break of the sort.

You don't have to put me down that low.

Slam the reality into my blood.

Sometimes, I wish that I'd never existed.

I wouldn't have to see the occasional benefits of a firstborn

Whatever.

Screw it.

I hate it.

You have the potential to be an interrogator.

Your eyes lack warmth.

All I feel is bitterness.

God.

I don't have to say,

" if you're there, help me out"

Because I know you're there.

Even if the church change.

Times change.

You remain the same.

All I want to find out is.

Is it still going according to your will?

I cried myself to sleep the previous night.

Wondering as the icy words resound in my head.

Screw it.

I'm dead

Serious.

I'm not mad.

Just agitated.

The fact that I can't shoot back.

Cause our values,

from day 1

has been different.

What I say,

it can only be twisted to her liking.

Someday,

I'll prove my point.

Just you wait and see.

Don't say that this is to motivate me nonsense.

There are 101 ways to do so and you choose this.

What can I say,

bad judgement runs in the family.

Signing off

for now.

Wordless-song.

Monday, July 6, 2009,12:23 AM

On Saturday...

It's the first de-centralized service in the history of our church,

and I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to serve.

I truly, deeply love singing with all my heart,

And being able to serve like this

is really awesome.

From where we are on stage,

do your best to impact the person in the last row.

This is what we're supposed to do :)

And I love it ! :)

My desire of rising up to be a cgc

has not changed

but after being in church for 2 years.

I feel that I can start off from somewhere else,

and eventually work it up

It's time that I should start serving :)

I don't know if I'll get accepted but

there's no harm trying :)

The service was awesome,

I don't know what other words I can use to describe it.

This is Wordless-song

and I'll be

signing off for now :)

Friday, July 3, 2009,4:09 PM

Long.

Its been a long week,

I guess I can say,

I'm glad to be back in school :)

It may sound odd,

but I really am.

Though there is mountain loads of stuff to do

I believe that I'm not alone :)

also,

I don't wanna be on my own

>.<

It's sad that no one would even notice

if you'd drowned

if you've grown to overcome the currents.

I thank God for all the wonderful teachers

that he placed to teach my class

I feel sad that 2 of them won't be able to see us through till the end

but they'll be resting

and nurturing the tiny lives they have within them

the creation of life is always amazing

Seeing the impact they have in my life,

makes me want to be a teacher too :)

But i'll have to wait out the storm

and see truly

at the end of things.

Ever feel that you wanna change things but can't get the gear up and running?

there is so much stuff to do and you don't really know where to start?

I want to know things,

and like knowledge and gaining it.

But when the spotlights

come to me,

I find that I don't really

know myself fully

On the surface yeah, maybe.

But digging deeper within.

Even I don't know.

I guess finding an identity

is a thing that every teen goes through...

am I here.

Or there?

There's a lot of things that I need to finish up for art.

I really want to finish it up....

I really must be an insecure person...

how do I paint out that porcelain texture??

sigh...

I think i'll mainly be blogging once a week or so.

What to do??

When you have one internet line and

two people

that uses the computer very often...

Also, Michael Jackson's passing on still feels so...

surreal.

I guess I still can't get it through my head.

He's no longer in the world.

I can only hope he's in heaven right now...

I totally love his music,

his moves.

Even though he has a lot things against him,

I'm still a fan of his >.<

I'll be signing off for now :)

I'll be blogging soon :)

Tagboard

your tagboard here. Well, that's what it says but frankly I don't want to have it anymore, it's my story here so either say your comments about my life in my face or say nothing at all :)

So let's do something productive with the space!

Like bible verses!

Happy Day!

Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.

Micah 7:18 (NIV)
verse-a-day.com

Affiliates

A
Ashley/ Mei ying

B
Benjamin Bowen Chorale

C
Celestine

D
Dazzlyn Diana Lee

E
Evangeline/Shimin Eugene

F

G
Geraldine

H

I
Irene

J
Jasmine Jonathan Jia Jia Jocelyn

K
Kenneth Kimberly

L

M
Marissa Mei Xuan

N
Nadia

O

P

Q

R
Rena Rabia Ronald

S
Sharon/Kehui Selvi Sihui Shu xian Sushmita Shi jing

T
Tirta

U

V
Vivian

W
Willie Wendy

X
Xiao Long Xiao Yong

Y
Yi ying Yun xin Yan Sin/Hope

Z

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5A1' 2009

cookbook!

Thankyou

Designer: indreams maybe

Resources: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

Profile

As above mentioned, here's my profile. I'm 19 this year, born on the 21st of October (Major hint!) and I'm pretty much growning crazier by the year.

Things I want to learn and do in my lifetime:
Violin
Guitar
Piano
Snowboarding
Travel around the world
Be healthy
Archery
Fall in love
Own a branded charm bracelet *so that it doesn't rust easily
Japanese Language
Korean Language
Knit

There are quite a number of things I wanna learn and honestly, I have no idea of how to accomplish them all. Even so, these will take me quite awhile...

Can be quite direct,sarcastic or lame. I sing songs at random points of time just for the fun of it. This will be where I'll be venting out my feelings and some of my nonsensical thoughts as well and what happens in a day of my life. I love God with all I am and is attending City Harvest church!!

Aother note is that I write online stories so if you're curious you can check them out here >> http://www.wattpad.com/user/violynn

Things I like:
-God :)
-City Harvest Church,
-N266,
-Art lessons in school, -reading books,
-Jpop/Kpop/Mando pop -manga/manhwa,
-anime,
-dreaming,
-writing,
-singing,
-watching tv ( CSI, CSI:NY, Project Runway, Take Home Chef, Anthony Bourdain's no reservations, Oprah winfry, etc)
-Watching movies! (strictly no horror!)

Things I don't like:
To find out, know me on a personal level :) Things to note:
This is my life in bold, italics and underlining.
This is my song or fairytale whichever you wish to call it, be it fast or slow, gentle or intense. This is how my emotions are able to be conveyed, sometimes words don't come out the way I intented them to and body language gets misinterpreted.

I'm generally a nice person with lots of patience and cold/lame jokes.
We can joke around and have fun, catch a movie, meet up for meals, talk about anime, manga/manhwa...etc,etc

Don't mess with my friends or family, cause my time bomb is NOT to be played with cause there might be nothign left of you when I'm done.

Education thus far:
Xinmin Primary
Bowen Secondary
Republic Polytechnic: DCID!! << current course and school I'm studying at :)