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Fairytale
'cause I don't care for your fairytales You're so worried about the maiden though you know She's only waiting on the next best thing Snow White is doing dishes again cause What else can you do With seven itty-bitty men? Sends them to bed and calls up a friend Says will you meet me at midnight? The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows

This is my life and my story

I'm telling.

And no, I'm not that interested in

your drama. :)

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Sunday, June 21, 2009,5:23 AM

In between...

A lot of things has happened between this post and the last.

for example,

receiving contact lens on Monday,

watching movie on Tuesday,

going to Sentosa on Wednesday,

going to cca camp for 2d1n on thurs,

bible study a few hours after the camp ended :)

I know there are more people out there who live much more hectic

and stretched lives then mine.

But for now, i'm really feeling it.

I really need to study.

I haven't done anything yet.

My current self is going nowhere.

*note; no-where. Not now-here

lols

just being random here>.<

The thing that struck me most is

that for a mature believer.

obedience comes before discipline.

Whereas, a not yet mature believer,

discipline comes before obedience.

What happens when you're afraid of making mistakes?

So much that you might miss an opportunity

just because you might mess up.

The thought of not making mistakes

was drilled into my head since young

A typical scenario would be,

" if you ever do this i'll ....(insert punishment)

sometime you can say i've given up hope.

well to a degree,

you're right.

That's why i need Him even more.

I need his help and guidance.

If only night time was not considered

a dangerous time,

a time we should not be out alone.

Considering there's quite a number of mentally challenged people in my area....

If not for that case,

i'd love a stroll through the park right now

the cool night air and wind

so welcoming and refreshing:)

sigh....

Its 5.45 in the morning so i'll head off to bed.

and when i wake up,

i'll go make my father's day card.

i don't know why inspirations comes easier when at the last minute...

Monday, June 15, 2009,2:10 AM

Sunday, Saturday and Friday....

Sunday....

Woke up at 12 plus

Had an awesome breakfast!

Home cooked meal!

When was the last time since

I last ate my mom's cooking?

I'm thinking around January??

When I asked her if she would cook for my friend's bbq.

Then I met up with my dad and stepmom :)

YAY !!

Had another round of awesome food!

And we went to watch a movie too :)

The Taking of Pelham 123.

It was an okay movie to watch.

Except for the fact that they kept using

the f*** and mf***

which made me quite irritated.

Like do you have to use that word for

every sentence you say?

There is countless of words you can use in the english

vocabulary and this is the best you can do??

>.<

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Saturday...

Went for service

and it was celebrity night!!

It was so cool!!

There were

beauty queens,

actors,

singers,

and

dancers

I went to conference room 1 after service,

F.I.R was there,

Liu Gen Hong

and

Vi Vi wang

!!!

But actually,

I would have preferred to go to conference room 2

Ocean Ou De Yang,

Vanness Wu

and

Niu Nai

were all there!!

WWaaaaHHHHss

>.<

oh wells....

I guess I would have to wait

until there's another event like this

where they're participating in

...

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Friday...

Went to the churchwide bible study.

Song of Solomon.

It was amazing!

Also, there's so much to digest

>.<

It ended quite late.

Some of my cg ppl

went to visit Willie at

his family member's funeral.

Willie!!

If you're reading this!!

I'm so sorry I didn't go over with Kenneth and the rest

I can't turn up at a funeral in

bright pink!

I also forgot to bring my jacket with me too

>.<

..........

So I went back with

Sharon, Mandy and some their cg members.

So sorry I still can't remember your names...

Had a whole lot of laughs

while I was travelling with you guys.

Taking a bus from

expo to bedok,

with most buses having ended their services

by 11.47pm ....

we took the same bus service,

going back ,

past expo,

and into simei

then into tampines

where we took bus 27

back to hougang!!

I was so relieved ...

>.<

I wouldn't want to stay up overnight at bedok

with no place to go.

Also,

with 8 people,

going to a void deck would count as illegal gathering

>.<

So, I thank God

that we got back to hougang

Wednesday, June 10, 2009,4:11 PM

Extra lessons are finally over!

I can finally give a sigh of relief

now that I don't have to worry

will I oversleep?

Will I make it on time??

Now being able to rest better,

have a good sleep.

Is mostly what's in store for me.

Of course there's studying too :)

And doing my coursework.

Very important!

Now, the thing that I love doing,

well at the rate i'm going,

I'm gonna hate it soon...

Is it really that I no longer have the passion for it

its something I need to have a breakthrough in?

In the process of making a card.

will the right feelings be put into it??

How do you explain what you have not seen.

Not known about?

I now I have to be accountable.

But I can't see it in my imagination yet!

Being blinded is irritating.

Restore my sight.

Restore my mind.

Let me see

what is supposed to be.

A little not wanting to go to evening prayer meeting

but since I told my family that I'll be going out later on.

I might just as well go.

I mean,

there's no reason not to....

REALLY NEED TO THINK THINGS OUT!!!

Signing off I guess.

Most likely be back to blog

later at night.

Saying how good p.m. was

blah blah blah

going to be back soon :)

byes !! :)

2:40 AM

Oh my gosh!!!! NOSTALGIA !!!

Wow,

its really been ages since I last saw the cartoon!

Since like Primary school

on cartoon network!

Along with the little lulu show,

flintstones,

yoggi bear,

etc etc

Its exactly because of these weird cartoons

that made my sis's and my brain frequency

or rather cogworks

different from normal people.

Hey, when you watch shows like

The Addams Family

as a kid,

can screw your head quite a little.

explosives.

living severed hand

blue butler??

reversed terms

how horrible= how wonderful.

get the point? :)

But thats what my sis and I love it !!

Must watch!! or at least in my opinion :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zm3gtVolA2w&feature=PlayList&p=0B26613545472D11&index=15

really need to learn how to make the video show...

2.53 am

going to sleep soon :)

1:54 AM

Rest...

Now.

1.56 am.

Currently killing myself slowly with

1. The lack of sleep

2. Bad sleeping habits.

3. Continuous late nights

~muffled yawn >.<

....

Looking forward to my last day of extra lessons

Looking forward to studying in my own ways and means.

Its about time I did something for myself :)

Hmms....

While on that thought.

Maybe I should save up to straighten my hair again....

Hmmms....

So many things to do.

So little time.

God!!

Guide me on how to maximize my time!! :)

and helping me in quitting my bad habit of biting my lips...

It can really get quite painful....

Sunday, June 7, 2009,11:13 PM

Adam and Eve

I realized why God created Adam and Eve in the beginning

because,

loneliness is as real as day and as loud as silence.

Seeing its almost as if I've been living by myself

since my mom went overseas since 30th May( back on the 9 of June ).

And with my sis not always at home.

Living an independent life

on my own.

Isn't as appealing as I once thought it was.

Coming back home,

to a place where you can't say.

"I'm home"

feels awkward for me.

It feels more of a hotel.

with the exception that there's no room service

or someone to do the laundry for you.

I don't hate housework.

Its just loneliness calling out my name.

And depression is joining in on the fun.

Whispering lies ,

corrupting my brain.

It all makes me feel like crying.

It's hard to handle it all.

I look strong and I am strong,

don't get me wrong

but there is a limit where I can hold myself together.

I can't hear my heart's voice

It's within me

yet it's so distant

and out of reach.

Why?

Holy Spirit,

my guide and guardian,

friend and lover,

where are you?

Using the computer almost 24/7

just to block out loneliness's murmuring

watching t.v ,

distracting myself

and my imagination

from depression's ghastly plots it has in store for me.

Keeping it sane

is almost a challenge now.

I can only cry to God

and ask,

bring me away from loneliness.

From the dark parts of me

that I no longer want to visit.

This past whole week.

Its been a challenge just going to school.

No one there to make sure that

I'll be there,

sitting in class.

Just me.

Pushing and forcing myself.

I managed to be there 4/5 days I was supposed to.

On Friday,

at churchwide bible study,

I realized the kind of love I have with God.

Faltering love.

For all my life,

I built this wall to protect myself.

Even before I went to church,

this wall was already there.

Fortifying itself throughout the years.

And here He is.

Calling out to me.

Waiting for me to come out.

Here I am.

Still reluctant.

It seems I still have a long long way

to go before I have a mature love with God.

I guess this is what life is all about.

The journey.

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your tagboard here. Well, that's what it says but frankly I don't want to have it anymore, it's my story here so either say your comments about my life in my face or say nothing at all :)

So let's do something productive with the space!

Like bible verses!

Happy Day!

Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.

Micah 7:18 (NIV)
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5A1' 2009

cookbook!

Thankyou

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Profile

As above mentioned, here's my profile. I'm 19 this year, born on the 21st of October (Major hint!) and I'm pretty much growning crazier by the year.

Things I want to learn and do in my lifetime:
Violin
Guitar
Piano
Snowboarding
Travel around the world
Be healthy
Archery
Fall in love
Own a branded charm bracelet *so that it doesn't rust easily
Japanese Language
Korean Language
Knit

There are quite a number of things I wanna learn and honestly, I have no idea of how to accomplish them all. Even so, these will take me quite awhile...

Can be quite direct,sarcastic or lame. I sing songs at random points of time just for the fun of it. This will be where I'll be venting out my feelings and some of my nonsensical thoughts as well and what happens in a day of my life. I love God with all I am and is attending City Harvest church!!

Aother note is that I write online stories so if you're curious you can check them out here >> http://www.wattpad.com/user/violynn

Things I like:
-God :)
-City Harvest Church,
-N266,
-Art lessons in school, -reading books,
-Jpop/Kpop/Mando pop -manga/manhwa,
-anime,
-dreaming,
-writing,
-singing,
-watching tv ( CSI, CSI:NY, Project Runway, Take Home Chef, Anthony Bourdain's no reservations, Oprah winfry, etc)
-Watching movies! (strictly no horror!)

Things I don't like:
To find out, know me on a personal level :) Things to note:
This is my life in bold, italics and underlining.
This is my song or fairytale whichever you wish to call it, be it fast or slow, gentle or intense. This is how my emotions are able to be conveyed, sometimes words don't come out the way I intented them to and body language gets misinterpreted.

I'm generally a nice person with lots of patience and cold/lame jokes.
We can joke around and have fun, catch a movie, meet up for meals, talk about anime, manga/manhwa...etc,etc

Don't mess with my friends or family, cause my time bomb is NOT to be played with cause there might be nothign left of you when I'm done.

Education thus far:
Xinmin Primary
Bowen Secondary
Republic Polytechnic: DCID!! << current course and school I'm studying at :)